Fate

Hey there! It's been months since I last update I know. Well, life's pretty good, I guess? Time flies & poof, there goes 3 semester of my degree life. FYI, currently I'm undertaking industrial training. In other words, I'm having my internship & yes, I'm a cheap labour lol! JUST KIDDING! Let's just skip that topic cause it's friday I dw waste my time talking about the-super-duper-sien-working-life.

I'm here today because.. Idk. Perhaps I just couldn't find the right person to express my feeling. I just don't feel like disturbing others & make them feel annoying lol. Yea typical Leo, pride will always come first. 

People around me keep on asking, why am I so choosy or picky or whatever. 

"People treat you so good leh"

"Why you dw accept him?"

I don't appreciate, they say. 

But you know, I really don't like to force myself to "love" someone just because he treats me well. In fact, I hate it. I know, he had done so much for me but it's useless to be together with someone you don't love. I just can't. I will not be happy & same goes to him. Afterall, happiness is one of the important factors for a successful relationship. So, there's no point being together right? 

& I truly believe that if it's meant to be, it will be. Idk if you feel the same but hey, fate brings us to meet each other for a reason. That's what so special about "fate".  No matter what, I will appreciate everyone who came into my life & cherish those who stay. Thank you friends for being by my side even after seeing the worse of me. You guys make me a better person than I was yesterday. I just couldn't describe how much I love you guys. I may not show or tell you guys I care but I really do. You guys mean a lot to me! 

To my dearest roommates, it is not an easy task to stay with others w/o any argument because I understand that everyone has different lifestyles. However, I'm glad to say that we have make it through w/o any argument! Though we are just half way there & 1 more year to go, but I know that we will make it! I would like to thank you both for tolerating me all this while. I may be crazy at times, doing all those silly stuffs & my super messy table! hahaha! I really miss those moments when we shouted like mad in the middle of the night watching horror movies, doing house chores together, dolled up & travel to places we have never been together, eat like there's no tomorrow, burn midnight oil just to finish our assignments & etc. All will be my precious memories during my college life. It's great to have you girls w/ me all this while. & yessss, our gossip moments! lol. & also my classmates/coursemates, w/o you guys life wouldn't be so amazing! All those silly jokes and laughter, copying each others' assignment when we have no idea what to do, yum cha moments, hanging out together.. It's so fun & crazy & I love it just the way we are. Yes, I gotta admit I kinda miss you guys already! In one year time, we will go on our own separate ways but you guys will always be missed! I will never forget everything that we have been through. Thanks brothers & sisters for lighting up my world. Paint it w/ colours when I thought my life is just black & white. Love youuuuu mwahs! x.

Balloons balloons I love balloons!

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I'm starting to believe this wishbone thingy though. I dk how true it is but the more you believe, the closer you'll be.. Yes, I really hope my wish will come true someday.. 

Actually I dk what wishbone is & I didn't even know it exists.. until my darlings gave me a necklace w/ this wishbone pendant on it. They told me story behind the wishbone & it's kinda interesting actually. 

"make a wish before wearing your necklace"

So I did like what they told me. Keep believing & your wish will be granted someday. Okay, so now I'm still waiting for that day to come, slowly & then all at once. x.

dream comes true.. someday it will, I believe :)

Exam Sucks!

I want to go home so badly.. 

Do you know how it feels like to look at everyone finishing their last paper while you still have 3 more darn papers? Wth is this man. 

So frustrating yet you can do nothing about it. Sigh.

It has been a tough time for us you see.

But I keep telling myself, "everything will be over soon.."

At times I feel like giving up, but I remember the reasons why I held on for so long. It sorta motivate me to keep on moving even though I know it will be a tough journey. Still, I dk how long can it lasts.. 

So emo can. 

Okay la gotta stop ranting and start studying dy.

Good night x.

Current life?

Erm. Hi?

I guess no one will be reading this as I've abandoned my blog for so damn long plus I changed my blog link.. Cause I'm just secretive like this! lol joking! Was bored w/ the old link so yea, if you're reading this then I know you're someone close to me *winks* 

Well, why am I back to blogging? Idk actually. 

Just a place for me to rant w/o people stalking and I can write more than 140 characters long. :P

 Let's talk about my current life? Currently I'm like 300km away from my beloved hometown. Tbh, it's kinda challenging to me cause I've never leave home alone to somewhere else for the past 19 years. & Idk where I got the guts from -when I decided to leave home & continue my degree in KayElle.

Perhaps I just wanna try out something new.. which now I regretted lol

Everything here sucks! Firsly, idiot college cheated on me.. US, to be exact. Not a single shit done like what they promised us in diploma. Secondly, no yummy food like my food paradise, Penang. :(  

People here are so different from Penang, like they are competing everything w/ everyone around them & they are so lansi okay. ( Not all la of course, just some people I spotted ) 

The most important is.. no handsome guys in my course. HAHAHA just joking okay I'm not that desperate lol

Somehow I managed to survived through second sem & I feel great cause I saw many people gave up halfway but I can still take it. Tell me I'm awesome lol!

It is definitely not an easy path but I'll stay strong! 7 subjects in a sem which people are calling us crazy but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? ;)

Lemme show you a fav pic of mine! *please ignore my fatssss*

This was taken last monday during Joel's birthday!

Okay, I'll always have a thing for balloons & idk why. Perhaps it's just way too attractive & I can never resist it. Especially balloons w/ helium gas.. I'm so in love w/ it! 

Btw, we've done something silly like swallowing the helium gas to make us sound like chipmunk! HAHAHA cuteness overload. Just imagine when you talk & you sound like chipmunk.. or minion?! 

Nothing much just sharing something random w/ you people :P

I guess that's it for today & I shall update again next time. Kinda surprised I can write this longg was expecting a super short post lol. 

Good night people x.

BFF!

好朋友，不是应该互相坦白的吗？

这段友情何时开始变得那么脆弱？

我真的不明白。。

以前的我们，可以每天嘻嘻哈哈

有说不完的话题

大家互相开玩笑都不会生气

就这样，我以为我们可以做一辈子的好朋友。。

但我却没有想过我们会有这一天

我们的距离渐渐变远了

再也没有说不完的话题

也不能像从前那样彼此一起开玩笑了

现在说句话都会弄痛一遍

呵呵

是你变了吗？还是我变了？

或者彼此都没有变，只是时间改变了一切？

我不知道。

我只知道，以前的你不会那么大声跟我说话

如果你觉得有时候我们的玩笑太过分了，对不起

我在这里真心的跟你道歉

你可以不接受，但请你想一想，当你开玩笑的时候呢？

难道就只有你有感觉，我们没有吗？

就因为珍惜，我们都不想为了一些小事影响我们的友情

我们一直很努力的在挽回，而你呢？

你都无所谓了不是吗？

虽然你口口声声说你没变，你很珍惜我们的友情

但你的行动却背叛了你

你明白当时我们的心情吗？

高高兴兴的要一起出去

你拒绝了我们说你要去group study，说朋友生日

okay 我们不要为难你

但为什么你要让我们看到

你的朋友一起dinner你却不在？

反而在那边跟她互相post status。。

那时候我们真的真的很失望

失望不是因为你没有跟我们一起出去

而是你为什么要欺骗我们？

为什么你不要对我们说真话？

你还当作若无其事的嘻嘻哈哈

难道对我们坦白真的那么难？

说真的，如果说要放弃一段友情
我真的会难过，也会不舍得
毕竟一起经历过好多东西
但我不想勉强
也不想自己好像白痴一样
所以一段假情假意的友情，我宁愿不要

我们都知道我们之间有了一道墙

我不想再伪装，也不想再逃避了

我很累了，真的

今天，我写这一些不是要跟你吵架
我也从没想过要吵
我只想把一切说清楚而回到以前的我们
如果你看到的话，就好好地想一想吧
不需要跟我说什么
就自己静静的想
能不能为了我们两年的友情而放下之前所有的不开心
如果你不能也不需要说什么了

all the best. :)

Sigh.

When can I live my life happily?

Why is happiness so far away from me?

Seriously, I hate myself so much. I dk why.

Maybe cause I'm too stubborn over stupid stuff.

I know it's not worth it at all but it's like I can't control myself.

Ya thanks to myself causing myself so damn emo.

I tried so many ways to find back my own happiness

Yes, I did it but ONLY when I'm with people I love the most.

I can feel true happiness when they are all around me.

Thankiuuu buddies! x.

Well, definitely not when I'm alone.

It sucks to be alone honestly but it's something unavoidable.

Trying to make myself numb so I won't be that emo over my fucked up life.

But never once it lasts.

In the end I will still lost my happiness.

THAT'S MY LIFE. SO SAD RIGHT I KNOW!

p/s: I'm about to blaaa a lot but it's already 4.40a.m now so I better get some sleep first as I'm having class tomorrow! I shall continue it someday else! Goodnight :)

First Post of 2013

Back to blog? 

Hmm I dk why whenever I'm having finals I definitely will have the " I-must-update-my-blog" mood..

So weird.

Perhaps trying to escape from reading those BORING books.

Anyway, this is the first post of 2013. 

Is it too late? I guess not cause late is always better than never :P

Time flies & it's March now.

Diploma life is gonna end real soon like only 6 more months to go?

I should already made a decision by now but unfortunately, I haven't. -_-

It's kinda difficult for me to choose to stay or leave.

Sometimes I feel like leaving & try to live a new life out there.

It's kinda challenging to me as I've never leave my home-sweet-home for more than 1 week alone for past 19 years.

So if I decide to leave then I will have a chance to try out how will it be w/o depending on my family.

But sometimes I feel like staying here cause.. I'm reluctant?

I'm sure I will miss my family & friends very muchhh :(

It's like I'm so damn used to everything here in Penang.

& then suddenly I have to live w/o them..

Then I have to make new friends, trying to get used to new people around me

& new environment as well.

Okay laa it's not that I'm anti-social but I'm just so used to mix around my friends here.

So yeahh that's why I'm in a dilemma now.

2 years back when I just entered the college I was like.. "Ohh I have 2 more years to decide so I can take my own sweet time to choose my future path."

But in the blink of an eye I'm graduating soon..

Plus I'm turning into 20th in a few months time man!

Can't accept the fact I'm already that old.

Seriously hope the freaking time can slow down or even stop here.

But stop dreaming Fennie Oh, it will never happen. :/

Start thinking what you really want in your future & make up your mind.

Arghhh so frustrating!!

Whatever laa I should rest now. 

Gotta wake up early tomorrow plus have to study like crazy for finals on Thurs.

So I guess it's gonna be a hectic day tomorrow.

Have to burn midnight oil again...

Good luck to me & good night to everyone!

P/S : I secretly want to be a kid forever & never grow up. :(

All-in-One

Hii humans!

Suddenly feel like updating my blog so yeaaa..

Hmm dk what to update so I'll just update about some old random stuff.

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Steamboat is definitely the best thing to do during rainy day.

Just imagine it's so cold out there & you're enjoying steamboat at home.

Yumms, totally in love with it.

So we went & bought all the ingredients after our classes ended.

Then headed back to hostel & prepared everything.

Taa-daaa, our dinner of that night.

Steamboat is love!

We were eating like some hungry ghosts or what.

We tried to clear all the foods so we stuffed our stomach until we can't take it anymore.

Okay in the end we still can't finish everything. :X

But 4 of us ate ALMOST everything.

Not bad huh?

Tam jiak face? :P

Ee Woon has super cute chopsticks!

It looks so real man.

If she didn't say I wouldn't know its chopsticks. -_-

Steamboat using colour pencils? xD

Though we are super full but when it comes to desserts, we can never resist it.

Especially ice-cream, my all time favourite! 

Love love love!

Ice-cream plus 'tang yuen'

We over night together & had a great night with them.

Laughing like mad at silly stuff they did.

So they next day we headed to Wen Khai to attend the Community Sociology kids' Children Day.

Okay la actually our main purpose is to visit them not to watch all the performances. :P

In 1 year time, they'd grown up A LOT like seriously.

Watching some of them graduating & gonna be form1 next year.

Time flies..

It feels so good when they still remember you after 1 year & gave you a big big hug. <3>

But just managed to take photos with both of them.

Wanted to take photos with the rest but they were like running here and there. -_-

Well, perhaps will have a camp with them again next year! Hee

My little sisters! Heh 

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Restaurant with beautiful environment :D

Cozy environment <3>

Seriously lovin' the environment there.

So yeah, we went all the way there to celebrate my niece's 2-year-old birthday.

But seems like adults enjoyed the food more than the birthday girl. :O

Anyway, let me show you my adorable niece!

Birthday girl! <3>

Trying to do the 'peace' sign? xD

Another niece of mine.

She's damn naughty yet cute at the same time.

<3>

looks cute but damn naughty. :X

Blowing out candles

She loves blowing out the candles.

& she loves it when people sing 'Happy birthday' song.

:D

Love this picture!

While her baby sister sitting aside doing nothing.

Haha so pitiful. :(

Pei Wen <3>

& I spotted this naughty girl was standing aside, emo-ing.

So I brought her around to see the fishes there.

She was kinda excited and shouting so loudly.

& then she said she was afraid of those fishes. 

DOT DOT DOT

emo girl

Of course, take photos there is a must. winks*

Me, my sis & my cousin snapping photos all around.

W/ our family as well.

But just gonna post some of it. :)

yay me me me! :P

me & beloved grandma <3>

Grandma <3>

Fennie! :D

Take #1

Take #2

w/ mummy! <3>

But I think it's the same, just the colour slightly different.

Anyway I'll still post it xD

w/ hiao hiao cousin <3>

vain vain vain me! :P

photo w/ birthday girl!

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A day out with my high school sweethearts!

It has been so damn long after we last hang out together. 

Miss it how we used to hang out together so often during high school :(

Smile :D

Soph fetched Fe & then came over my place to fetch me & after that Jo!

We got no idea where to have our dinner at first.

Decided to have dinner at a restaurant nearby Tanjung Bungah but fully booked. -_-

So finally we changed our plan to Mizi @Tesco Tanjung Bungah.

The food there wasn't that bad though.

The dinner set has free-flow ice-cream! :DD

busy busy girl! >:(

So we updated each other with our stories.

& we talked about the good old days we had.

But most of the times we were vain-ing with each other. xD

After dinner we headed to The Library @SQ.

Okay I'm so lazy to elaborate so pictures will do the talking.

Heh

Group photo! <3>

Lovin' the light effect of Soph's camera. <3>

wo men hen vain!  :DD

HEHHH :D

Had a great night w/ you bitches :P

Catch up again, soon! <3>

pretty polaroids! <3 nbsp="nbsp">

That's all for today!

Miss me yo people! :P

x.